rEgrEts

this world is full of regrets...but sometimes we just can't change back our past..but we can always be be a better person in the future...

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LOVE...??? LOVELESS...???

Every single person will experience this at least once in their life…so…here it goes…..

Attention…!!!! Diz entry might make u think “why is she posting diz in public”…so u dun have to bother reading it….unless u’re interested…

TUNES OF …love is like a music, once u participate the melody will keep playing in ur ears…it takes time to get to the end, but sometimes it keeps rolling til the end…we got crochet and minim in the sheet, that’s same as LOVE and honest…it’ll never be a melody without rhythm..and it’ll never be a man without a woman…God draws the sky and decorates it with the fully shines of moon and stars…just give life a time to understand about LOVE…when the song is totally arranged…it will be TRUE LOVE….

-acai--20051009-

MR POPULAR @ MR GENIUS.. 1^st major crush

Lasted for 6yrs I think…(hohoho…cm org bodo je tym 2…)..Knew him in primary school but then I transferred into another school…met him back 2 years later...

Still the same…good in sports…studies…looks…couldn’t help but to fall for him…(who doesn’t???)

I think he knew I had a crush on him cuz his friend (who is also a friend of mine...noes bout it) had mayb told him…

Now…he’s studying abroad…n I have no more feelings toward him…May Allah bless u owez…

MR ROMANTIC

Older than me by 4 yrs…great guy……introduced me to the world of romantic art…likes to write poem…n I love all his poems…(xsmue poem die ak dpt save..memory hp full tym 2…hehe...)

Slalu jd peneman ak tym ak stdy late at night…even helped me in my studies…(syariah n quran sunnah xslh ak...)…

Had a big fight once ngn die bcuz of my silliness...(2weeks die xcntct…2 pun after die tau d real ctuation from my bez fren...) brula ak tau btapa pntgnye die…

Y sdeynye…he never told me about his true feelings... (even though die prnh bg hint from his poems...never asked him bout it...cuz I liked some1 else...)…then lost contact aftr my PLKN….(lme gk ar…cmne nth bly t’cntct lik)…

Aftr cntct lik….tup tap…he’s engaged to some1 chosen by his parents…(brula nk gtau die ske ak...but xbrani ckp cuz I’ve told him b4…"I dun wanna be involved in a relationship b4 my SPM”...la konon...hehe..)...…x cntct dh with him cuz dh b’tunang…(xmo ak kco tunang org…kang kne serang…huhu…)

Now…dunno what happened to him…may Allah bless u n ur family owez…

MR NICE

Hrm….i think he’s d first guy who likes me…n I like him back….(but never told him though…huhu…) n he had make me forget everything about my silly crush on MR POPULAR…

Same age…but knew him during my high school..(tym 2 ngh kwn ngn MR ROMANTIC gk..)…good in studies…n also a nice guy…but never met him…juz contact through phone…always there for me…giving me advices..and never look down on me eventhough spm result ak agk truks..…(cuz he’s much more smarter than I am…)…

Tym PLKN…dh mula ek ot…(cuz can only cntct him once a week) …but then baik lik aftr PLKN…

After die msk matric…ak msk uitm..masing2 bz….n he doesn’t cntct me like b4…(bz ktenye…nth btul ke x..)…xsbr ngn die…I told him I wanted to break diz friendship (xpnh kapel with him eventhough he asked a few times)…n he’s like…"ok..if that’s what u want”…(fed up ngn keegoan ak kut…or dh jmpe some1 else…huhu…)..n I’m like "FINE…!!!” (tym ngh ‘break’ ngn die…de with my frenz…clbrate b’dy membe..thn je air mata ak ni smpi la ak lik blik…)

One year later met him back through friendster…sometimes we do cntct each othr..but no more feelings towards him…

Now…mls nk cntct ngn die dh…dunno y…hehe…May Allah bless u 2 my friend….

MR PATIENT

Hrrrrrrmmm…..great guy…reminds me a lot about MR NICE….knew him since semester 1…told me bout his feelings…but I told him I wasn’t ready (cuz tym 2 die buat ak t’ingt lik kt MR NICE..smpi ngangis ak mlm 2..huhu…)…advised me when I went out with 2 guys at d same tym (as frenz only k..sngt appreciate advice die…)…always there for me when I’m in a bad mood…(ngah nk final…so mmg slalu tension…)..helped me in my studies…

Overall…mmg die sngtla baik bg ak…but…I was sooo mad at him during our semester break…(cuz he’s d type who likes to msg..n I’m the type who doesn’t like to b msgd evry minute…)..so I decided 2 ignore him at last when our new sem started…(ak sngtlah b’salah ngn die…)

Now…we’re still coursemate…n I’m always in guilt whenever I see him…(smpi klu t’nmpk die…ak xbrani pndg die..or tgur die..)…until now aku regret bt die cm2…

2 MR PATIENT…(if u’re reading diz..)…thanks 4 all d memories we had shared together….n I’m truly sorry 4 everything…hope u’ll find ur star who will treat u better n love u for who u are…

Now…still feeling guilty….May Allah bless u owez my star….

MR UNKNOWN (de sbb ak gelar die cmni…)

Older than me by 9yrs…caring guy…n calls me evrydy...but I dunno the real him…until now…

Made me feel how MR PATIENT had felt when he left me t’kontang kanting 1 day…

So…dun wanna talk much bout him...

Now…still hate him…hehe...but thankful 2 him….=p

MR COOL

Tall…cute…model like figure…(his looks de iras2 actor a.... …. )…hrm……actually I dunno anything bout him…well mayb a a little…(2 pun dr workmate ak y pnh satu skool ngn die…)...first saw him while I was working part time in my hometown…at first xtgk ngat die…(cm bdk control macho je..)..

Tp…adeiii…t’tentang mata ngn die y bt ak jatuh ati trus ngn die….hard to see him cuz he’s always in his friend’s shop or sometimes je g kdai membe die…sometimes he’ll lalu tmpt ak keje…so dpt la tgk die…tp xbrani tgk lamer2…tgk from jauh je…so after I stopped working there…(smbng degree plak..)…no more seeing him…so………….

Now…dunno where he really is…still dunno who he is…his name…n others…(dh de girlfren rsenya…) tp xpela…diz crush won’t last long….

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So…diz entry….i dunno y I’m posting it…maybe bcuz I wanna forget all my past…n start a new chapter in my life…

What is LOVE..?? I still dunno but… I’m still searching the meaning behind this 4 letter word…

I hope I’ll find the right guy in the future who is sincere …(nth2 ngn one of the MR above ke…ner taula kn…hehe….juz joking…hny Allah sje y tau...)…but no matter what…I need 2 LOVE myself first…right..???

unExpecTed mOmenTs...

salamz~...
kombanwa.....

i never like shopping before cuz my mum doesn't like going to the mall unless we have to do our grocery...but now...i shop til i drop...hehe..

so...2day my friends n i (minnie n monday) decided 2 go out...since 8, monday had waited for me n minnie at d bus stop...

around 10 a.m

we arrived at jalan masjid india n juz wandered around d area...didin't buy anytihng though...huhu...tym 2 kaki dh penat...

around 11.30 kut til 1 p.m agknye

g sogo lak...tym 2 la we started 2 but some stuff...monday bought a t-shirt n handbag...ak lak bli 2 helai bju je...2 pun after pnat belek sna sni...minnie ak xprasan lak bli pe...kaki aku dh strt nk cram...huhu..

unexpected ctuation

then kteorg g bank withdraw wit jap...(actually ak budget nk bli bnda ln..tp t'bli bnda lain plaks..huhu..so t'paksa la..) after dat rehat jap kt tangga...tetbe je de org ner nth ngamuk kt ctu...smpi blng n tendang helmet die kne kete org....fuhhhh...gler ke pe...tkutnye psl..kteorg cabut dlu...kang xpsl2 kteorg y kene...

around 1 something kut - plng bez

planning nak g mid...tp ak trigin nk g times...so minnie pun bwa la kteorg g sna...punya la happy ak...hehe....

unexpected meeting

1st kteorg g solat dlu...pe2 pun solat kne bt dlu...on d way nk g surau...t'nmpk lak kdai y ak familiar dkt hometown ak...

"eh..cm knal je kdai ni" hati kcilku berkata...tym 2 jantungku dh cm pump y tetbe xleh brenti...excited sngt...

so i told my friends yg ak nk lalu sna aftr solat....aftr solat..kteorg pun lalu....my heart dh dub dab dub dab sngt ni...................................................................................................
lalu je.......ak nmpk some1 y ak familiar sngt........(eventhough ak nmpk blkng die je..but i am 100% positive it was him cuz ak dh biase tgk die dr blkng..cm stalker plak..hehe..i'm not a stalker k..)....cm nk mlompat pun de...nk ngangis pun de....punya la ak rndu kat Mr. Cool ni...(had a crush on him tym ak bt part tym dlu...i'll tell him more in my next post..)...xsngka bly jmpa kt cni....my friends dh plik dh tgk i xbtul kejap...hehe...sorry ea u guys...ngh angau jap...keke...

unexpected over budget

then ak tringin nk g tgk smthng y agk nonsensela...actually bkn agk...mmg bnda x b'faedah pun...so g la kdai y x-roomie ak pnh gtau 2...aduhhh...t'sngt la rmbang mata ak tgk brg2 kt ctu....(pe brgnye ea...sbar ea...hehe...)..
at first ingt juz nk tgk je...but...huhu...terrrrrrrrrrbeli gk those stuff...mmg lari bis my budget...smpi i had to borrow minnie's money....(then t'paksala ak withdraw lg my fulus frm d bank 2 pay her back...)...but i was sooooooooooo excited cuz dh lme plan nk bli....n at last...dpt gk ak bli...hilang jap sakit blkg ak..(jln sna cni nye psl...huhu..)
then we juz wandered around again...until la asar....
ak tym ni mula excited lik..yela...after solat bly lalu dpn kdai 2 lg...but............................................................
die xde.....sdey ak......bli mkn 4 b'buka kut...or dh lik....membe die je y lyn customer...

unexpected break fasting

at first ingt nk mkn kt bintang...tp dh lmbt sngt....so mkn je kt area around times...around 5++++ kteorg g la cri tmpt 4 berbuka....pusing sna...pusing sni...smue restaurant full...smue dh kne reserve...my frenz n i dh penin cr tmpt...naik turun...naik turun...nmpk 1 je kdi y still de kosong...kdai mknan jepun plak tu...huhu...so kteorg pun t'paksa la....da food we ate was so-so.....prefer nasi lemak....hehe...
then g solat magrib lak......n cam bese lalu kt dpn kdai 2....skali lg ak t'sngtla dissapointed...d shop dh closed....huhu...sdeyzz ak...so skali jela aku nmpk die...

udon n miso sup

nonsense stuff i bought...mmg overbudget..huhu..

i'm extremely tired but juz had to type all this...hehe...oh yeah...b4 i forget..
actually the stuff i had planned to buy and was within my budget.......................................................
ak x bli lngsng.....hehe...

oyasumi....n slmt berpuasa......